Traffic

It’s rage inducing.

road_rageIt’s a cliché, I know, but it still affects me. I wish it didn’t. If only I could find an inner calm, appreciate the fact that I’m in a car, that I have music, that I’m comfortable and safe. Nope. If someone in front of me slows me down because they won’t take an aggressive left at a green light I snap. If someone doesn’t use their blinker to turn, expletives fly from my mouth. If someone is driving too slow, and I’m running late, I hate that person for five minutes; my rage focuses on their perceived driving inadequacies.

Is traffic the villain here? The construction that causes a lot of the traffic I’m complaining about is a byproduct of human population increase. This would mean that all humanity is my villain, and I would be falling into the trap of becoming a villain myself. It’s Sisyphean — fighting the inevitable growth of humanity is an absolute fruitless struggle that would never end; and it’s a total waste of time. As you know, time is not on my side.

I’ve realized lately that when I let myself get wrapped up in hating traffic, I’m having a bad day because of something else going on in my life. If I’ve worked out, meditated, eaten well and slept well, traffic is just another thing — this is a healthy adult lifestyle, right — but it’s tough while trying to launch a new career at the age of forty-four with two kids who go to different schools on opposite ends of the city.

Personally, I can’t wait for the self-driving car. If I were to do the time/life calculation on how much time I spend in traffic I might end up in a psych ward. So, I must come to terms with the fact that I spend a lot of my life with other humans in the river of cars going from point A to B. If I don’t, I lose. I don’t like to lose.

2 thoughts on “Traffic

  1. Absolutely LOVE this.
    My career as a Realtor keeps me driving a lot. As a native Portlander I have seen like the rest of us the traffic increase in the last 5 years. It’s a shit show if I’m allowed to say that here.
    Like the weather here, traffic has gone to a catogory of conversation I rarely discuss. Can’t change it so I try not to dwell. I use the time to make phone calls, hands free of course or sometimes even listen to books on tape or podcasts.
    Trying to stay positive and sane.
    Traffic does decrease the quality of life here for me. If I can’t change something I look at my choices. It keeps me from feeling powerless. Awesome blog

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