“That voice in our heads is not us. It is Resistance.”          

                                                        –Steven Pressfield

shutterstock_407496973Blind faith in my creative process gets me through the rough patches. Sometimes my fingers feel like anvils, and each attempt at a keystroke is mentally excruciating. I look at the words on the page, my characters, the story, and I hate it. A not so quiet voice in my head tells me its crap, it’ll take too long, I won’t succeed, blah, blah. It’s noise — a construction zone of chaos in my dome, looking for excuses to stop working, get angry and quit.

I’m too persistent. I don’t know how to quit. If this were easy I wouldn’t be doing it, so I relax, step back and see the big picture.

To say a novel is difficult to write is silly because, to me, it’s seemingly impossible. If the novel were a mountain and the process were the climb, then I’ve been climbing for years without seeing the top. I just have to believe the top is there. It’s that simple and that difficult. I might be nuts, yeah, I know.  But, so what. We are all nuts in some way. If you think you aren’t nuts then you are probably crazier than most, and that’s okay too.

In times like this, I tell myself to settle down, take a step back and appreciate other things. Family, the sun, the ocean.  Awareness of the simple things helps me reset. I like to look at life in the present and let the good soak in, but it ain’t easy.


9 thoughts on “Resistance

  1. Fight thru OB, you will always be your toughest critic and that will be what make your work great. When you are strggling to see the path try to take a step back and remember, there are lots of us that believe in you.

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  2. Ca sent le jugement anti FRANCAIS, on peut voir une certaine delectation du juge que l’on a vu par 2 fois à l’écran ! Le jugement dans le sport c’est le coté obscur et pourri du sport ou c’est parti pris et compagnie ! Bref le jugement ne sera JAMAIS équitable et gâche le sport dans beaucoup de discipline marhlueeusement ! En tout cas ça donne envie de faire de la boxe sur certains juges, alors vive le sport !

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